Coram Deo

Sorry for not posting in awhile. So much has been going on!!!

However, I mainly want to reflect on the retreat a few weekends ago that Serah and I have attended, called Coram Deo. First off, we weren't even sure we could go because of the price, but there was a generous donation made that allowed Serah and I to go for free, praise God!!! It was a fun time, as well as a time for reflection and a personal time with God. After going through rough weeks of loaded homework, and the toughness of our move, it was much needed.

In the first session we talked about the question "How bad do you want it?". The pastor integrated other questions under the head question. One of the other questions were, 'How bad do you want God's purposes and will for you?'. He also mentioned that if our only goal is to get to heaven, then we are headed in the wrong direction, because it shouldn't be all about going to heaven.

He also mentioned how our surrounding can be our greatest enemy. How we all get caught up in being in a 'positive' surroundings. Meaning that we can get caught up in the comfort and aren't willing to get out of that comfort zone. This raised the question 'How great is your personal sense of spiritual desperation/hunger for the Lord?'. Then he went on and talked about how we know about that desperation/hunger for the Lord, saying that it starts with a determined choice to go after the Lord. He brought up the thought of we want the solution without working hard for it, or without it costing us anything.

What all this meant to me? The questions helped me reflect on it more, because I tried answering those questions. It was difficult, because I wanted to believe that I was desperate for God, however reflecting has made me realize, my actions and my thoughts don't show that desperation. It also had me thinking about what I have in my life that is taking away that desire, because ultimately, that should be my desire as a christian. A lot went through my mind as I reflected on that, which I reflected on throughout the weekend.

I could go forever talking about the retreat and it was amazing! It was loud, crazy, yet for me, I could still feel intimate with God. Also I was able to make some new friends over the retreat, which was great!

God Bless!!!